I’ll confess..

I don’t like change. It sucks.
It’s probably because I haven’t experienced much of it before. For most of my life I’ve lived in the same city, been at the same school, lived with the same people.

Until you. You were something else; different to anyone I had ever known. Immature, forward, patient, honest and so many other things I was not. Maybe that’s why I liked you so much. You showed me a world outside of my own and I couldn’t help but let you into mine..

What happened then is a secret that only you, me and our Father will ever really know. It annoys me that no one else truly understands us. I guess it means that there’s no love like ours. God’s gift to you and me. But He gives and He takes away.

I guess too much of a good thing can make you comfortable. After a while you delight in the gift and forget about the One who gives. That’s when things fall apart.

People don’t like change because it means diving into a world of unknowns, somewhere unfamilar; uncomfortable. What scares me is the feeling of letting go; letting go of something good. And missing it, a lot. Leaving it behind and walking away, not knowing if you’ll ever come across it again.

But if there’s one lesson we’ve been learning, it’s to trust. Trust Him. The One who loves endlessly and is forever faithful. As difficult as it is, just trust. I know He makes all things work together for our good.

ps. i miss you.